“I’m a pretty little nightmare”

Yeah right now I’m avoiding doing scholarship applications… I just don’t want to. No real reason… I think its just the laziness in me.

Lets see… Nick and I are good. So far the plan is we are getting married next winter. That is if everything else works out. I guess he is going to go into the army after I graduate. I think we just need to talk about it more because I’m kind of torn. I want him to do it if it is what he really really wants. But if he is doing it for me I don’t want him to do it because it scares me. For obvious reasons. And I’m scared the only reason he is doing this is because I keep saying I want that kinda house and I want this kinda life… I don’t want him to think that he has to do this to make me happy. Because I will be happy as long as he is with me and we get married next winter… I was so prepared for him to come down to Kalamazoo with me next fall but now things are changing.

Other than that things are still pretty much the same. CTC sucks balls and the teachers pretty much expect us to be mind readers and know it all. Which never happens because we are left out of all major decissions. But hey what can ya do. So this week I have to give an Autism presentation to an local Autism parent group and teach a bunch of elementary school kids how to wash their hands.

I’m actually keeping up with NHS this year too. I am volunteering for everything I can so I can make up the two points I missed last year and the 5 for this year. But its been fun and I feel good about it.

Its pretty much set in stone that I am going to Western. I just have to send in this little sheet thing saying that I want them to save me a spot at the Bronson School of Nursing Pre-Nursing program… so yeah this should be exciting. Its just kinda scary making the final decission. But hey I know I want to go there but its gonna be scary without Nick. It is a big place and yeah I’m scared of driving in big areas… Nick was gonna be my protector.

SO yeah thats all that is even going on… Not much but enough to keep my busy. And holy crap my fish are like purplely pink… I have no idea why but they have like colored accents on their fins… That can’t be healthy.