“Mommy and Daddy got the best cocaine”

   SOOOOOOOOOOOOO Yup I haven’t written one of these in ages… its just cause I’m sooo awesome and busy all the time with all my cool friends… which isn’t the truth at all. I actually do nothing… I work and sit around with Nick… or go out with Nick… or spend every waking second with Nick. But anyway on to the good stuff…

   I AM GETTING A JOB AT BELL OAKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! If ya can’t tell this is my dream come true. This place is heaven. I went there for my interview and I LOVE IT THERE! It isn’t like Lakeview… this place is so clean and smells good and you can tell the residents are cared for. Its more like a nice apartment building then an adult care facility. Well for my interview I sat outside with the owner and she talked with me and told me I could begin training towards the begining of August. SO MELANIE CAN BE ON CO-OP! I’m so excited I can hardly handle it. Plus the pay is 7 bucks an hour. As long as I do good with the training I can have the job… so hopefully I can’t mess it up too much.

   Also… I’m going to be a senior soon… so that is going to rule!!!!! And as far as I know I don’t have any enemies this year… yet so I don’t have to worry about rumors and drama. I can really get into school too so I can have all A’s like I did in the old days instead of damn B’s thrown in there too.

   Then today I had fun… I hung out with Emily, Allison, Shanel and Laura… it was the first time that has happened in forever. When I got home I about cried because I just felt like I didn’t have to worry about someone wishing death upon me anymore. Not that they ever did… I would have no idea, but what I mean is I know they are civil to me and I don’t have to worry about being hated with a bloody passion around them.

   Another good thing… I’m going to start going to church… not completely where I’m going to go but I know this is going to happen. I want to know my life is going somewhere and that someone is watching over me. I also want to be baptised but that that is more of a long term goal.

   One of the main reasons I am getting way more serious about this is because of Jameson passing away. I wasn’t really close friends with him but its the fact he was MY age and I knew who he was… He was our basketball star… Well at his funeral they kept talking of him being in a better place and knowing life was going to be okay for him. When I thought about that I realized I have no idea where I’m going when my life is over and thats scares me more than anything.

   Nick and I are doing okay… We spend soooo much time together though. Don’t get me wrong I love it but I’m just saying… every….waking….second… I mean just this past week he spent the night here 4 nights in a row. Of course he was working for my dad so he had to stay late but still… when I wake up all uglified in the morning I don’t need my boyfriend to see that. I care for him a lot though… I realize he has made me sooooo much more less self concious. Before I was always worried about what people though but at Michigan’s Adventure I was just walking around without a care in the world. I didn’t care if me bum was hanging out after going down the slide… well I would of course correct it but I wouldn’t think "oh my god everyone things I’m a fat cow!!!!!!!" So he is making me a better more self confident person every day. I LUUUUUVVVVV HIM LOTS TOO!

   So yeah thats just a little tid bit of an update…. LIFE IS GOOD as of right now:D TOODLES!