“Bitch give me my money”

   Gotta love Stephen Lynch… He has like a great singing voice but the lyrics…. out of control. Hence why the "bitch" song is the one I chose to use as my title.

   I have no idea why I decided to do me a little blog ola over here. But I am bored… and I don’t want to let my sister play sims. She is starting to get… a smigin crazy about it. I mean like writing EVERY little detail down. It is kind of weird when the only way we can carry on a convo is if she freaking adds in something about Sims.

   So yes back on track…. Things have been… good and bad. My grandma is officially dying now. We have hospice taking care of her and she isn’t having tons of tubes hooked into her anymore*that basically would keep her going but as a vegetable*. So I go up ALMOST every night to tell her I love her. Sometimes she can talk and other times she can’t. You have to really strain to hear here… because she can’t breath so well and the words just don’t want to come out. When she does talk she just goes on and on about her being a bother and trouble and that she is just so tired but she can’t seem to get over it. Yeah that sucks when I’m in there and she says that. Then sometimes she will just tell me she loves me very very much… It is really hard sometimes. I mean seeing her not be able to move around and barely opening her eyes… And I swear to god this is making me mood swingy. One minute I seem all normal then I think about my grandma and how damn close we are… and I am crying my little*HA! LITTLE!* ass off.

   So that has been shitty. I have been going out more though. My parents keep encouraging it. They don’t want this to completely get to me. So last weekend I went out with Liz and we hung out with her boyfriend and one of his buds. That was… interesting to say the least.

   ANOTHER SHITTY THING! Fucking school*well CTC*. Okay I missed three days because I was fucking sick…. Well I go into CTC and Ms. H acts like I was retarded for not just coming in and puking all over everyone. All she can keep saying to anyone is "I just don’t know about the hours and how you will make them up" She is speaking of the OBRA class hours… and god damn its not that big of a deal. All I need to do is come in for a full day and Mr. Berg is just fucking fine with it. I swear to god she would rather have you come in missing all limbs and have some South American flu virus instead of actually missing class.

   WELL! Last night was kind of nice though. It started off looking bad though… I was going to go see Hostel with Em and then I was gonna meet someone there. It was all just fine and dandy then my dad had about a mental breakdown and we had quite the damn fight. There was me swearing and slamming doors and him just getting that look… the one that says "I swear to god girl… do it one more time… I dare you…" Obviously I realized my ass was going no where. I went and got Em anyway so I wouldn’t have to be alone. We got back and my dad and I kind of worked things out but he said I still couldn’t go… reasoning… it was too late and the weather was bad. I was pissed but I figured I can’t fight it. Em and I went to get pizza and such and when we got back TJ had called for her. He was asking her to come to the movies at the same damn time as originally planned. BUT NO! Still a no from my dad. So we eat and I kept feeling guilty cause I told that guy that I was gonna fucking be there… Later I tell my dad its not even fucking snowing now. I didn’t say fuck but yeah he tells me to look it up. I show him and he actually says we can go! So we get that kink worked out just in god damn time. Then we are worrying about how the fuck we gonna get in I’m not 17 yet. So we call up TJ once we are in town, cause Holly is with him and that was our way in. So we met them at McDonalds and we both got to the theater at the same time. Laura*yes she came along too* and I payed for TJ, Em, and Holly… yup just made of damn money over here. SO we get into the theater… after Laura kicks TJ’s ass at air hockey… And eventually the guy I was meeting showed up and sat next to me… and I’m not going to go into detail cause then Melanie sounds like a fucking stalker freak…. BUT THE MOVIE! Yeah it was good… quite gory but I think is what made it good. That and the sweet ending.

   So yeah last night was nice then today I got my hair cut… dyed and got some new scrubs. I’m just all set to go I spose… and now that I wrote a fucking ten million word blog… I’m done…

 

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