“I’m gonna make somebody love me.”

   I’m being a lazy ass and not going to CTC today… I just didn’t want to I guess because I didn’t want to have to dress up for halloween. SO I came home after lunch and I have just be kind of laying around doing my geometry work.

   Yesterday turned out to be okay after all. Well some of it was anyway. I call Emily and I asked her if she wanted to come with me to Manistee and she is like "I smell like ass"… Yeah so I told her to hurry and take a damn shower. I headed out there and we popped in some "tunes" and we were off.

   We first went to Kaleva cause I had to get Roman’s damn hat back along with his CD’s. Of course no one was at Courtney’s so it was all ackward as I had to go over to his house. His brother answered the door and it scared the living bejesus outta me… he kind of looked like a caveman.

   Next we went to my grandma’s. When we got there the beagles didn’t even get up and bark. I was a little shocked since snoopy never shuts up. I went to knock on the door and freaking lady bugs came out of no where and about landed on me. Well I’m peering on in the window and she pops up out of no where. Yet again the bejesus was scared out of me. She looked so nice though… She started saying oh its so good to see you and next thing ya know she starts crying! I wanted to start crying cause I NEVER see her do that….  Well after awhile she calmed down but then she started up again and I was like a deer caught in the headlights. Then she was trying to get us to stay and she kept offering food. I was always like "I’m fine grandma" But then next thing ya know she is getting out triscuts and cheese and pooring me some apple juice…. Then I felt bad cause we had to go and she looked all sad….

   So after I got out of the depressed area Emily and I pulled out directions to Zach’s house… Yeah it was like we were on an adventure. We are retarded but that’s what it felt like. All the while Emily is in the backseat with a black and orange boa on. We finally got there and he came running out of nowhere… well it wasn’t nowhere but he was a fast little bugger. I prolly would have hit him if Emily didn’t say something cause I was in that nervous swerve off the road kind of mood.

   We were just driving on along and then we went to eat. Yeah during that whole time I felt like such an idiot. I kept doing stupid shit which just made me seem like "special" Melanie. Also I was scared it was going to be ackward silence the whole night… THANK GOD it wasn’t… I can’t stand the silence… Cause I’m a loud mouth bitch sometimes I spose

   SO yeah it was basically just the hanging out kind of thing. We played pool enough to kill and of course I have to suck sooo bad at that. Emily wasn’t too much better than me…. Okay she was a lot better but at least she wasn’t as good as he was. Cause yet again I would feel like the retard.

   That’s the just of it. It was pretty much just hanging out and making sarcastic remarks constantly. Not just him… no cause Emily and I are exactly the same way.

   So on the way back to my house Emily was scared for her life cause it was rainy and dark… and it was the first time I had driven in that combo. Also I guess the deer just had to be jumping out of no where constantly…. But at least I didn’t get in an accident… THAT would have been a treat.

   I got home and jumped right on the computer cause I had homework to do… but I kind of didn’t do a whole lot of it anyway. I sort of started watching TV with my sister and I got distracted. ALSO Ben called me and I told him what I did in Manistee…. That ass wipe went insane. He is like "I JUST ASKED YOU TO WAIT FOR ME! THAT’S ALL!!!" Okay… it wasn’t like anything funny happened I hung out with a guy! HUNG OUT AS IN FRIENDS! Grr…. that’s what pissed me off the most I mean if I had like snuck out in the middle of the night to go hang with some guy I adored… sure I would understand but that boy… oh its on… who the hell am I kidding its always on with him*me hitting him repeatedly*.

   Then this morning I just didn’t want to get up. I woke up and I was tangled enough in my blankets to kill. I mean I had pillows under my arms and then one over my face*safe I know* and then the blankets… It was like there was a different one covering every limb. I about feel out of bed but I managed to avoid that somehow.

   At school it was pretty much boring… Although in Lit we had another day to do our project but I just goofed off the whole. Well I just talked with people cause we were moved to a new seating arangement… I needed to get to know the people.

   Then after lunch I decided to not go to CTC so I sat on the computer bored… should have been doing my project… Damn for some reason I can never bring myself to do homework for either Mrs. Hiller or Mrs. Zagata!

   After awhile Emily came on over and asked if I wanted to go to her house. Of course I did cause I didn’t want to do homework.

   We got to her house an

d we had no idea what to do. For the first damn time in like 2 months I just flopped on her bed and we talked. She was at the computer hunched over… just like she always was. So we were talking about how we hate skinny bitches. No not all of them… just most. And how it is retarded that guys just pass us on by cause we are… not perfect. We damn fine…  okay I’m decent looking but the weight… scares the guys away and it is BULLSHIT! Okay well after that we played monopoly*just change topics*. And I was on a damned roll this time! Usually I’m the one with everything morgaged off and I’m this |  | close*thats damn close* to bankrupcy… but not this time! I had two damned hotels on boardwalk and… the other blue one! I WON!

   Then her brother gets home and right of the bat he is a screaming crazy fool. After we finished monopoly the boy followed us to her room and he had a damned gourd that he kept hitting us with. PISSED ME RIGHT OFF! Then he would go down the hall and run into her room to jump on the bed… so what do I do… I shut the door in his face. The boy fell straight backwards and I thought I gave him a concussion for awhile but that didn’t stop me from laughing!

   My dad came and picked me up and I came back here. Now my sister is asking me to help her get ready but I don’t feel like it… I just want to type this bugger on out. Later Emily is coming over and we are carrying out tradition… it is kind of lame but we just pass out halloween candy and watch horror movies… hell it gets me by.