finding it somewhere

as anyone could see by looking at my diary I’ve had a little trouble keeping regular entries in this, my much loved diary…
I remember the times when I would feel trapped within myself  when I clouldnt write in here atleast once every day or two… and even found myself writing a few entries a day, if not adding poems or lyrics or what not.
yet it seems to have turned dry and barron and I’m not sure why.
It may well be that when I wrote in here all the time I was in school….  having boy troubles…  job and life troubles etc etc…. and now my life seems to have leveled out and  I’m much more at peace and happier then I was….

I feel like as much as it goes round my head, there are only so many  time one can write down how in love they are and in not become boring for the few readers this diray still has…. I know my Baby will read it and like it but  I live with him and tell him every chance I can how special and wonderful he is… I feel like in here I want to cover new ground when I write… I want to expore more then what I have before…. go on an emotional journery of discovery of sorts…

even now saying this I feel better then the last few attempts to write an entry in here….. I want to find the time and conviction to write regulary…. I also guess it would help if I know more people read it…. but that may or may not come in time…. what I sould focus on is that if I keep this up then I’ll have a great record of things that  I have been through….

I spose I should fill in people with whats happening recently…..
I’m at uni… first year… studying early childhood teaching…
working at a bookshop…..
living with my lovely Bryan….
and gerneraly happy…..
a little tired tho…..
but thats ok…..

I shall endever to use this ready source of release more often……
Michael