Letter no. 7 [Ex-Boyfriend]

To my  "Ex-boyfriend"  : Nik

Hey. You.
I can’t say i hate you with my guts, cause i don’t. I don’t hate anyone.
You’ve disappointed me numerous times, but i keep finding it in myself to forgive you. And I don’t know why i kept doing that.
You pushed me to the point where I wanted to kill myself. I wanted to be removed from existance.
I kept believing your lies. One after another, while you hurt me.
I can’t say that i regret those .. almost 2 years, with you. Cause I learned from it.
And if i hadn’t gone through that, i wouldn’t be who i am today. && I’m pretty fucking happy (:
You’re what, 18 now ? You have no job, no goals, absolutely no motivation to do anything, and you’re always so negative.
Everything that i told myself i’d never want in a person, i found in you.
I havnt spoken to you for months.
I have no idea what you’re doing.
I don’t really want to know.
I hope you do something with your life.
PEACE.

-Pheebs