stress and spring break

you know what, I don’t feel all that great right now, not sure why though.  I have been doing a lot of thinking which isn’t good for me and then I have had so much school wise going on in my room such as studying for spanish tests, oral interviews in spanish, and this paper that I am working on right now (you can tell how hard I’m working on it to).  I can’t wait to have a break from school, my need for change has risen and wants to do more than freaking school all the time.

Spring break will be interesting since I’ll be spending a couple days with my friend Katie (kat) and then I’ll have a  week in Napa.  I’m not sure what will happen, it will be intersting that is for sure.  He has plans for my birthday which, well I don’t know, I generally have plans of what I want to do and I have always done my birthdays the way that I want them so I’m unsure of how things will go, I’m also unsure of everyone that he will have coming along.  I’m not into huge things, I don’t want a lot of drunk people around me, I don’t want car talk going on all around me, I don’t want to feel uncomfortable on my own birthday. 

What I really want to do is have my girls with me, I want it to be a girls’ day with Lynne, Kat, Christiana, Katrina, Robyn, Christina, and a few other girls that I know, that is what I feel like having since I just never get a lot of time with my friends and I haven’t had a girls’ day since the day before I came down here.  I want to have everyone in my ‘burb and go out to lunch or dinner, maybe catch a movie, just laugh, talk, have a good time.  I miss home at times, thinking about this, I miss it even more.  I have Christina, Robyn, Kat, Christiana, and Katrina all here in california but I want Anchorage as the backdrop for it all, actually I want a summertime Anchorage for a backdrop.  Sometimes I wonder if I should just stay here, have a small thing with Robyn and Paul and whoever else was able to get here.  I know that I would have a good time then, it would be something comfortable and fun.

I don’t know, maybe it’s because I’m slightly stressed out right now that I want something different for next week.  I hope that I have a good time and that I wont get stressed with things on my last off week until school is over with.

I have to go, I need to write my paper before its due time of tomorrow at noon.