thoughts for today…UPDATED

I don’t know what it is, for some reason I am just feeling kinda alone, out of it, un-noticed which is really dumb since I have been hanging out with my roommates, talking to the boyfriend, and going to class and such.  Honestly I think that it is because as soon as I walked in the door sunday night I was surrounded by my room mates and their boyfriends or as in the case of one room mate, their “friend”, it makes me miss my boyfriend even more and I usually do which can get on the nerves after awhile since I don’t miss people and then he had to happen and screw it all up 😛 j/k I wouldn’t trade hom for anything, I love him too much.

I am liking the classes that I have, I did have 4 to start with but I had decided to drop one and after the first day of that class I was sure that I was dropping it since it’s not a class that I really wanted to take, it wasn’t one that I needed, and it was going to have 4 books for text like reading and a LOT of writing that I would have to do and after awhile I just don’t want to deal with that.  Tomorrow I will go look at the employment office that is on campus to see what they might know of that is avaliable and see if I can find a good job that way since I need to get a job badly.  I should also drop by Pinards office and see if he wants me to still gradfe for him this quarter.

I need to clean my room, I haven’t completely unpacked from christmas break and stuff is just all over the placve from what I did unpack, after that I will do my spanish homework and then I will crack open my new psychology book, I knew that I should have bought the book yesterday, all the used ones were taken when I went back today.  I only spent $159 on books…for two classes, only three books, the psych one was $115 on it’s own, bites.

There are times when I miss my friends from home and while I was home I missed my room mates and more than anything I missed my boyfriend more than anything and I was so happy that he got to come up for christmas.  Some of my friends from home were a little dissappointed at me since they didn’t get to meet him but really, I just wanted to have time together with him and I had enough going on with my family around all the time and he did get to meet some of my friends so that worked out, besides it isn’t like they are never going to get to meet him.  I really love my boyfriend, he’s the most amazing person and he’s everything and more that I could or would ever ask for.  He’s the best that that has ever happened to me and the one thing that I couldn’t see myself living without.

This summer things are going to change, I am not sure if I am staying in california or if I am going back to Alaska, I am not sure if I will take a year off from school or not, and I am not sure of just where life will be in general but I do know that I will be with the one person on earth that means the most to me and being happier than I have ever been.

Well I need to go, I have cleaning that needs to be taken care of and then homework, oh and then stir fry.

…I’m tired and I want to go do something, really I just need to get away from the couples that are around here, I’m doing spanish homework now and just waiting for it to hit 11 so that I can actually think of bed then I’ll have my classes tomorrow and I will feel better.  I think that I am happy with the classes that I have, I like them all so far and they interest me.  I have 4 more sections of spanish to do tonight but I don’t have to turn it in since he doesn’t want it at all, it’s just good for me to do and I would die if I didn’t do something for the class.

I am pondering what to do this weekend, Christina is going to Vegas with some of her friends that are closer to home, Robyn is going to Pismo but that should only be for one day, it’s just 15-20 miles from here but she will be with Paul most of this weekend and Marina will be hanging out with her “friend”, I’m going to go insaine if I can’t find a job to start right away.  I think that I might try to find something to do but I’m not sure what.  I had been planning on staying here, it being the first week of school and all but no one else is really going to be here and I don’t have major work to do this quarter so I’m hanging on a limb right now with thinking of things to do.  I could go up to Napa but I was just up there and I really want him to have time with his friends during his weekends, he doesn’t need me there to cramp his style, besides, he’s suppose to be getting his car back and so he’ll be playing with that once he gets it.  I wish that I could think of something, would have someone ask me to go do something with them.  Honestly, I love my room mates but we really don’t do a whole lot together and right now none of us really have the money to do anything except get our books and buy some groceries. 

Someone save me please, pretty please?