life?

Feeling rather tired and out of it all, I wish that there was a way that I could just jolt myself alive and get myself going again.  Things haven’t been the best at home and it doesn’t even really have to do with home but school and money.  I got some not-that-great-grades in a couple classes but mostly it was because everything flew at me all at once and when I was feeling like I had three more weeks before midterms happened, they were there, two more weeks and there was finals, it bites but I’ll do better next quarter. 

Money, that is a big pain in the everything.  I spent so much and I don’t really know where I spent it all, food, going out for meals, christmas shopping, clothes shopping, gas, oil change, other crap that happens, everything.  My mother wasn’t happy about that and she did the disappointed look that I just want to scream at sometimes and when I’m feeling rather out of it anyways, it just does NOT help me at all.  I had a great day yesterday, I did the end of my christmas shopping and I didn’t spend that much but we also went out for lunch and small things add up.  I have already told my mother that I’m getting a job as soon as I get back to school and I am, I already had that planned before I even got there so screw that.  I should have enough for my books and then hopefully stuff left over for my bills, we’ll see what happens, I might just get a loan or something or else sell some crap that I have, it should all workout.

I am beyound happy that I have my sweetie, I would have a very different life in California and it would not be as good as it is now and I’d be a rather sad person since it’s pretty lonely when it’s just me with my family or room mates.  I love him more than I can say and I can’t wait for him to get here for christmas, it’s going to be the best on ever, even if he IS bringing his camera 😛

Well I have to go, I’m going to read for a few minutes or something until he calls, then I’m going to sleep.

Laters.