sorry for not writing

i know there are many things happened on my OD friends this few months. one of my OD friends, who came here from at least the first page of this OD till now, asking me i need to write here as she will read my OD, happened sthg that cannot easily passed. although i hvn’t log in and write passage, i know she often comes here. but i just try to get into her OD page but the fxxking browser doesn’t open that. (i know it is the reason of this OD.com)

another friend, giving up writing OD but still always visit here.

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me, ghostfoetus, is not the past ghostfoetus anymore. why still visit here? few years before, i am the guy who just write the good to others. but now, i become cold-blooded. my writing skills is bad, my wording is bad, my English is bad, my passage is bad, my brain is bad, none of my thing is good. i lost the ability to help anyone. yup, cannot help anyone. i lost my confident to say anything which can help anybody. not just say, but write. but actually my oral dialogue is always worser than my written words. (i remember my a-level oral is U, but writing is C or D.)

me, ghostfoetus, not a doctor or postman anymore, i give up my holy job becoz my personal excuse for a long time.

in conclusion, i m not the ghostfoetus that u hv met here before. although i m not giving up my hands to my OD friends, i have lost my ability and confidence to do so.

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sorry and thanks for visiting here. i may not give up this account, but here, u cannot get anything more than ur life. if u wanna get sthg that may widen ur life, u may just read my past diary entries.

i m so grad that u can get things here (although all of them are past).

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i’ve read some of my old entries, i recognize that i write the words worser in the past. and now, i recognize that i write more useless than that entries. i read the notes, some of them seems optimistic to read more entries. some of the ODers are still here but i dun think they will leave any similar things in my OD.

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sorry for reading my bad English. and i want to say, this OD.com is so annoying, lots and lots of pop-ups and flashing light ad here. it is much more better in one of it’s competitor, xanga.

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taking care and once more, thank you for visiting here.