1/2/2004

Would you believe that I am still feeling ill from New Years. Well, its more like a depression is setting in big time.
We ended up going over to a friends and I drank way to much. I have done nothing but sleep since we got home.(we were home before 1 a.m)
I feel like the whole world is looking at me. I had to go to the title bureau today and get my car title put in my name. It took me 10 minutes just to get the nerve to go inside the place. I swear I am getting paranoid of people. When I am awake I hide in here in my computer room, away from the rest of the house. Russ uncle came over and I locked myself in here til he left. The boys keep coming to talk to me in here. So far no one has noticed that I am feeling off. Doesn’t matter that I am not doing anything but looking at the computer screen, not typing or anything. I must appear normal.
Ok. I have to venture out to make dinner. I think I will make them chili with hot dogs. I am not the least bit hungry. The most I havent eatten..TOAST.

Ali