Complaint

Ok, I am disgusted that I only had 3 or 4 entries in year 2008 so here I am, trying to put in another entry before history repeats itself.

My 2 dogs are sleeping at this moment. Poki’s sleeping on the sofa while Tuffy’s on the floor. I like to watch them. So cute. Sometimes I really feel I contented to have dogs and not kids. Opps. No offence to anybody but I think taking care of 1 kid is more work than taking care of 2 dogs. I watch as my bro handles his 1 year old daughter and I think it will take a lot of courage for me to have a kid. Well, not that I’m not going to consider because I think that ultimately, there will come a day when I’m going to be a mum. But I think I’m really not prepared yet. 

I know my in-laws keep thinking about being grandparents very often and they do not hide that. On and off, they will talk about it. But everytime they mention about it, J will brush it off, saying that we are not prepared yet, especially now that the economy is no good, that will be another reason for us to hold it off. Which I’ll have to admit is true. His company is not doing well now and he has to clear 4 days of unpaid leave every month. Sometimes I will jokingly tell him that maybe I’ll end up as the one to feed him. Haha. 

My mother-in-law (mil) has been complaining that we dont go back often. Not that she complains to me or J but somehow during the CNY, she disclosed that to my mum during twice of their visiting. Sigh. I dont blame her or dislike her for making that comment but I am not happy either. Apparently she hopes that we can go back more often, especially now that J has finished his MBA, meaning he probably has more time after work. Previously when he was still studying for it, he has to attend class 2-3 times per week nights and so in a way, she doesnt expect us to go back. But since he has no more studies now and since we live so near (argh, that’s what I dislike), there shouldnt be any reason not to go back more often. Duh. Does living near means having to go back often? 

The thing is, we are already going back regularly now – once per week. Normally we go back to my parents’ house on Sat for dinner and then to in-laws’ house for dinner on Sun. On weekdays, both of us are tired after work, and both of us do not knock off at 6pm. In fact, we stay back to OT. For me, I tend to go off around 7+pm or 8+pm. There are days when I work till 9+pm. 

When my mum told me about this, I was a little angry as I felt this was unfair to me. In fact, my mum was asking me to see if we can visit my mil more often coz she said she was also a bit paiseh when mil told her. My sis helped to put in a fair word. She explained to mum that we are already very ‘guai’ to be going back to parents’ house once a week – her colleagues did not return home that often. Which is true for my colleagues and friends. When I told them I went back home every week to both my parents and in-laws’ house every weekend, they were surprised and they told me that only went back once or twice monthly. No wonder I’m always so busy during the weekends as compared to them. 

My mum suggested that we can go back to mil’s house on days when J is on unpaid leave. That should be achieveable, but I guess it should be the case always because I feel that we should have our own time too.

Sigh. The good thing is, my mil doesnt complain to us directly. The bad thing is, she complains to me mum who comes after me.

Ok, enough of the complaints. Time to makan. And both my dogs are now sleeping on the floor.

Tuesday, 1346 hrs.