december thee firstest

Email recieved today, in response to my inquiry as to when I might find out a decision: (my email was something to the effect of, “when are you going to tell me?”)

Hi, Jennifer –

Very soon; we have scheduled our meeting to review readmission requests for Thursday morning, Dec. 1. I should be in touch with you later that day about the outcome.

Sincerely,

Janet ******

So… soon. Very soon. Day after tomorrow. Ack now my hopes are up again, and I want to go back to Hopkins again… wtf is this shit? I need to make up my damn mind!!

In other news, cute boy at work that I’m dating, whose name I should maybe reveal soon, (but not yet, even though I think most people know who it is, even people that aren’t supposed to know, including but not limited to my boss, but I digress) should be putting in his two weeks notice within the week. Which is good, because certain work situations are starting to get semi-awkward.

So anyways, I’m kind of wondering if I’m rebounding with him? Or if this is for real? I mean. I was more upset when Jim told me that we were ‘slowing down’ back in August, than I was a few days ago when he told me we were calling it off totally. Plus, I’d already started to see you-know-who (or do you?) before then. So I don’t think I can say he’s a rebound guy… So what is this? Why am I letting myself get so attached again so quickly? For chrissakes its been a week and a half. And I tell myself all these things–don’t get too attached, slow down, don’t go so fast. But then I’m with him and its just like… yea… and I forget everything. Not good.

My mind needs to be more on school and concentrating on going back. And I absolutely can NOT let my feelings for him affect my decision to either go back to B-more or stay here. Provided I have a choice, that is. Okay Jen, deep breath. Think rationally. It’s been a week. Nuff said.

Sigh.