moving on

ok… i need to stop dwelling… its over, finito, done… i think i’m ok– i mean, this relationship has been effectively over since the last time we broke up…i held out hope that it could still work, but obviously its not–it hasn’t… so the biggest hurdle for me to get over right now is the fact that it was the longest relationship i’ve ever had… its hard to come out of something like that with your chin up, especially when you’ve invested so much time and energy into it… its hard not to get all depressed and think “ok, so i’ve just been wasting my time for the last 9 months of my life”… except it wasn’t really a waste of time… every relationship, even a failed one, can make you a better, stronger person… i think one thing i’ve learned from this one is to not rely on other people to make me happy –happiness comes from within, and we should all be responsible for our own personal happiness… with that, i’m going to do (within reason) whatever makes *me* happy from now on… and no one else … yey 🙂 ok… off to do something that makes me happy now– cheerleading 😀

peace,
~jen