another milestone passed…
ok, i just have the feeling that the 100 questions survey from the other night won’t be enough to keep away the *site update police* (ie: JM) so, here’s another, more substantial entry
tonight was the last basketball game i will ever cheer at… we won, (yay!) but still, this milestone just brings me one step closer to graduating. yes… i’m dwelling on the whole graduating thing again… i think i’ve said this before, but people really weren’t kidding when they said that high school would be the best years of your life. I feel safe here, comfortable even, and Upper Perk really isn’t as bad a school as people make it out to be. i mean sure, it could use a few improvements… but i’d rather be here than inner city philly, or even NY. next year i’m going to a whole new school, to live, eat, and take classes with people i’ve never met before in my life. that’s a really scary thought. there are only a few more major events left before the big G… i wanna laugh and cry at the same time… college has been the main focus of my life ever since i was old enough to say *Stanford* but at the same time i just don’t want to go!! ugh!!
combine that with me not only leaving my friends who are going to college of their own, but also friends who are still in high school for another year or two… and its not like i’m gonna get to spend a whole lot of time with them over the summer either. almost right after graduation, i’m goin to puerto rico for a week, then i come home for like 2 days, then go to virginia for a week (and ren may or may not be coming with me–right now it looks like not)… then at least two of my friends are goin to italy at some point over the summer… almost all of us have jobs so that we don’t have to beg our parents for money, since most of them are already being so kind as to pay for our college educations, not to mention the vast amount of food, phone bills, electric bills, mortgage, etc over our past 17 or 18 years of life. as it is, weekends are hell trying to plan stuff… take this coming weekend for example– its valentine’s day weekend and a few of my friends and i were supposed to go out… saturday was no good because carlin works until 3, and i start work at 5, which would have left less than a 2-hour window. so instead we made plans for sunday, which was OK, until alex’s dad decided that he didn’t want to hire a sitter, so alex has to stay home to watch his siblings… and since carlin obviously wouldn’t want to go out without her (in the words of JM)”mushy-smushy” that leaves me and ryan… alone… *eek* well, first of all, i have to make sure its OK with him that alex and car aren’t going… but if it is ok… then it will be like a “real” date *Eek* i haven’t had one of those in forever… and i’m not sure how i feel about it… i like him, sure, he’s a nice guy– fun to talk to, easy going personality… but do i LIKE him?? god, i hope not… not that i wouldn’t mind dating someone like him, but i have enough things on my mind right now, without a guy to worry about.. plus he’s a sophomore… after i’m gone, he still has two more years of the “best years” of his life left…. *sigh* i’ll give more thought to this later…
peace out
~jen~