Black Friday

so yeah the biggest shopping day of the year is over thank god! and i only had to make 1 detour into walyworld to make a payment on my layaway. took lilman with me and we swung by McD’s for lunch. youd think id just have taken him home for lunch since we have a TON of left overs LOL .

but it wasnt bad really. i dont shop on this day. hell i dont shop at all if i can help it.

i talked to B last night. nothing specific he was on yahoo while i was and he always makes it a point to atleast say hello. im not sure why. i always habe to repress the urge to ask him why hes being nice and to ask him what he wants. but last night was different. he was flirting with me. and lord dont you know it hurt so bad. i just wanted to tell him too little too late. he should have been flirty and fun 8 years ago.. or hell even 2 years ago, maybe that would have helped save our marriage, for him to have a little interest. i hate that he still has the ability to make me cry. probably will for a very long time. i cant imagine what he was thinking. we’ve been divorced 4months and 2 weeks today. hes been remarried for 4 months. dontcha know THAT hurt.

so today black friday isnt just about the crappy shopping crowds for me. Oly had me help put up the xmas tree. the day after tday and already the damn thing is up. i hate xmas i need to be from a country that doesnt celebrate it at all. that would be nice.

so yeah this will probably be my mood until after xmas. sour and grumpy and generally unpleasant to be around LOL

happy day affter yall

Namaste