AGAIN?!?!?!

 So, talking to Chris and it’s not coming up but I know him well enough to know that he wants something, and won’t be grateful for whatever does happen. And even if nothing does happen, which is what he expects, it’s just makes him more depressed. If he gets what he wants, and what he doesn’t expect, he still acts depressed because all of a sudden it’s done for the wrong reasons. So, I don’t know what to do anymore. Continue doing the same I guess. 

And Pam! What a fucking bitch. Seriously. She’s tells me she’s not drunk, she still carries on a normal conversation, she still drives home, she kisses me, forgets the next morning, tells me she would never do that sober, and expects me to be ok with it. And not get upset. Forget the fact that she said flat out she wished I was someone else at the time. And this isn’t one of those situations where I’m being paranoid, she flat out said I wish you were Dan. GREAT! Whatever, I was hoping when I opened my eyes, you’d be Kristin, so I guess we’re both a little disappointed.  Fuck her, and fuck the women I know. I need to go to California like yesterday. Unfortunately, looks like Chris might be just a bit too angry to do that now, or at least not want to do that with me. Who knows. Fuck it all. Fuck all of it.