5/31/06

so… in two months the lease is up and i will hae no place to live. my father’s house will not be built and so that’s out, my mother has no room and my grandmother has no room, but it doesn’t really matter anyways cuz in my opinion that’s a step backwards and i need to move forward with my life. mock, fyrhwk, and christie are moving to florida, and i was invited to move along with them… and i think th’ats what i’m going to do… a new change of scenery, a change of pace… it shioiuld work out in the long run for the best… i just need to feel comfortable doing it… the worst part is leaving teh studion now… finally getting into my own here and now i’m leaving… if i didn’t hate fairfield so much and the majority of the people that live in it, i prolly wouldn’t move, but I just can’t stay here any longer… I’m starting to feel as if I hit my stride… That i got as far as i can and from here there’s nowhere else to go with my life, and i don’t know about you, but tha’s a scary place to be when your only 22 years old… i need to move and do something and feel like there’s more to it than this, and i don’t think that feeling is here anymore. so… tha’ts my update for the month or couple of months or whatever… sometime in early september or so i will be living on the other side of the eastern seaboard… let’s see if that alleviates any of my mood.