i just don’t know

not sure what to think. he called and we’re trying something out. but it means that technically i am not his anymore. i’m not really okay with it, but it gives me time to step back and look at this and try to see if it’s what i really want, as well as quit death. O_o

but really, i have no idea. i think i’ll reexamine in a month. but at least now i know that i can’t see him, so now i can plan my days how i want, not always hanging on by a thread.

i can’t think anymore.

~debbi