until

sometimes it’s just all too much

inside the strings unravel and the slack goes limp i no longer dance to a melody a pain that inside consumes each heart beat slow and steady tears in two memories of things much needed and lost all too soon i am broken pieces tossed askew a slow sad song  hurts more than i ever knew and others judge still silence will ensue a teardrop slipping slow and steady a victim to its weight as gravity still takes those thoughts we cannot pursue i feel so lonely

hurt without you

a dreamer’s dream forlorn on others’ lips the mark deceiving as i feel i’m falling spinning to a darkened room i am broken torn in two but it’s just a memory lost to you love is suicide the pieces unglued the heart beat slow and steady drowning in a river of tears my words they mean nothing new nothing now because i cannot remember when the epiphany were true i break alone standing down the ledge gravity on the edge fate will take my hand i always dreamed i could fly logic my only enemy dead weight falling to its doom i’m a loser baby just to me sometimes you always black and white bruised fingertips no longer bleeding scrapping flesh from the tips one last breath shallow and strained

these words mean nothing

from beneath us it devours trapped on the tip of the tongue restrained by lips unwilling to need the truth all apologies nothing to gain nothing to lose

i guess my heart had failed me when i thought it just so simple to be myself a person no one knows with words written or spoken the vertigo will take me lull me to my bed a heartbeat still aching slowly till it’s just blue a greyness enthralling to the strings still snapping til i’ve fallen

broken and blue

still a slow patter holding a dream red and white pages nothing to gain everything to lose