cars & me

As much fun as shopping can be, I must admit I really don’t like looking at buying cars.  you see those 4/5-figure amounts and think ‘well there goes any chance of having that car!’ – maybe ill just wait it out a little longer, im sure i’ll get a car when i really need one and i use public transport to get to work and back every day anyway.

I went and saw ‘Stuck On You” with my best friend last week.  It was pretty funny, i started slightly crying toward the end of it because it’s just so happy.  I’m not ashamed of my emotions.  I spent like 30 minutes crying in Sunny Park shopping centre here at Sunnybank because pretty much all my workmates were saying my boss was dead.  Now he may not always be the nicest person, but i usually got along with him and still you don’t say that about someone, just presume he’s dead and move on.  How inconsiderate.  i felt like I was the only one who cared – im glad they found him though.  But anyway my point is I saw it with my best friend Aaron – gee I so gotta find that guy a girlfriend, he’s so frisky!  Guess it comes with being a teenage male.  He hangs around me cos he knows im gay and that girls trust me more than they do a straight male, and maybe I can pass them onto him?  I think he should do his own dirty work hehe, not that he’s a dirty guy or anything.  Stereotypes make this world so shit, really pisses me off sometimes.  I’ve lost quite a few of my friends simply because of their stereotypical views on homosexuality.  Some ‘friends’ i see at church are too afraid to hug me now, it’s part humerous, part hurtful.  I’m over it now though, doesnt hurt.  The one thing i’ve learnt from this is not let people get to you.  I don’t go out proclaiming myself, people usually find out one way or another, not that I care one single bit 🙂  It’s none of my business what other people think of me.  If they have a problem, at least i can get action :).   I think I need to be single for a while, that last relationship really took it outta me.  I’d never had to ever break up with someone before, and it was the single most difficult thing I think I’ve ever had to do.  Don’t get me wrong, there are a LOT of absolutely beautiful girls out there, but at least i have little be be nervous about when talking to them.  One of my female friends rang me up asking if it was okay if she could go out with another guy!  I couldn’t understand her at all, why would she be asking?  Did she think we were dating or something? hahaha that’s funny.  Not her anyway.  Anyway i think she’s dating this other guy now.  Thank God she won’t annoy me about it now!

I’m sitting here now wondering how many of you have stopped reading my diary since the last paragraph hehe. 

Hey my friend Bill introduced me to this site!  The_Blind_Archer (if you don’t already know) is his diary.  He’s such an intelligent individual, I always wished I was like him you know, a really kind guy who I went to high school with, never afraid to speak his mind 🙂 Thanks Bill!

I wanna go to the plaza but its like 41 degrees outside today, im so glad this unit has air-conditioning, wheras our other one didn’t.  2 of my housemates are away, one’s in Sydney, one in Ipswich and the other just got back from Adelaide.  I live with 3 girls – all Christians so it’s difficult trying to not be myself around them, im only doing it for their benefit and to be considerate, they are kind people, but on a bad week, whoa PMS overload, i gotta get out of the house!  I usually go for a walk or down to the park or catch a train into the city and walk around aimlessly by myself.  I usually don’t have anyone to go with, but I like being able to do whatever I want and go wherever i want to go.  I’ve ran into a couple of old workmates in the city before, not literally hehe, and it was great to see them again.  I kinda miss them.  I love Southbank, i usually walk around the art gallery checking out the pictures and creations that could’ve been created by a 3-year old in some sections.  How a huge canvass with a black dot in the middle makes it into the Brisbane Art Gallery is beyond me!  And now there’s really cheap movies at the IMAX!  Hawthorn and Balmoral you guys are legends!  Southbank markets usually have something (or someone) interesting there.  Last time I was there, there was this guy making animal noises and you’d swear he was the real thing.  Easy way to make money though I guess – using you’re unusual talents to entertain others.  It’s so much more fun when you’re with a close friend though.  Me and a few friends go to a different restaurant on the 1st day of every month and usually have so much fun.  We’ve done Chinese and Italian so far and in March (at this stage) we’re doing Thai.  I love Thai, i used to eat at the cafe in Milton all the time when i worked at the food for less there – delicious!  Maybe it’ll change I dunno, I wanna try Turkish but a few friends have said don’t bother hehe.

I bought A1’s album for $4-95 at the warehouse – couldn’t believe it!  Get some real bargains if you’re at the right place at the right time.  I guess that’s why i hate car shopping, you don’t know when or where someone could rip you off.

I’ve got a few things to think about, one of my closest friends, i feel, is ignoring me for reasons beneficial to us both Im sure but it still hurts kinda.  im too scared to ring him though.  If Im scared Im going to be ignored by someone close to me, the last thing I wanna do is make them more uncomfortable 🙁 ah well im sure i’ll be over it soon enough, i can get over things pretty quickly usually, depends how close i hold them to my heart.  I think i’ve filled you in on pretty much everything!