Too Much

I left work early on Friday to meet Jay in at his work, then we went back out to mine, partook in some rather spontaneous, hard, dirty sex on the lounge room floor. The best type might I ad! Then I was rudely interrupted by Bren, who tells me that there are no busses that run from Fyshwick on the weekends… no wait this was Saturday afternoon not Friday – sorry. So I had to go and pick him up. He then asked if I could take him to his ex’s place (not the most previous) I sighed told him I didn’t want to know and didn’t want any part of it. He got a little cranky with me because he listens to all my whinging and carrying on. Don’t get me wrong I like this ex of his, he is a nice guy, and I love Bren, but the two of them anything other than friendship is a very, very bad idea. I have said it before and I will say it again; when it comes to other people’s relationships, I stay right out of it, it ruined my life before and I won’t let it happen again – out of principle. So he got cranky with me. Meh. I went back home and picked up where I left off.

I like the Antiques Road Show. There I said it. Let’s not talk about it again.

Oh and while we are on the subject… it came around yesterday, and looked like shit, like it had been without food, water or sleep for a week. It also wanted to me walk on its back, crack it or something, I jumped at the chance to have a go at causing it injury. So it put down a canister on the coffee table, laid down and I jump. After the desired effect it got up and went back into Bren’s room – forgetting to take its pill box. So I picked it up and had a look, a prescription bottle, Asian name (it isn’t Asian, nor is it related to anything Asian, inside were 4 no-doze tables… 3, 5mg Diazepam tablets (Vallium), 3 Mogodon, Some Nurofen Plus tablets, and 6 e’s… that boi will kill himself. I was quite amazed, I used to take them (e’s) but I never mixed barbiturates. GAWD!

In other good news I have 5 days off (Thursday through Monday) I’m not sure what I am going to do with all that time, but I want to go to the zoo, and aquarium. Doing lots of things darling… lots of gorgeous things…

I’ve decided that Love and Hate are two in the same thing. Both very strong words that not too many people can grasp the concept of. When someone instantly dislikes something and labels it as “hate” merely means to say “dislike”, the same with “love”. Call me a pessimist, but I don’t believe in love at first site, nor do I believe in hate at first site. You either dislike something or like something, then grow to hate it, or love it. One should never confuse lust with love, or disdain with hate.

I woke up with you in my arms, your soft breath against my neck, your intoxicating smell. I reach down and gently brush your hair away from your sleeping eyes and I run my finger down your cheek, feeling the texture of your soft skin against mine, and I think I love you. I don’t know if I love you… something is stopping me from doing it. I don’t want to give myself over to you, but I can, oh how you are worth it, oh how I want to…

Song for the day: Iio – Rapture (Riva Mix)

LPH