solving everything

 I guess it’s kind of an ultimatum, although I don’t really like to think of it like that.

Perhaps motivation would be a better word.  

It is definitely motivating though, not in a good way but in a stressful way.  Like, if I don’t do this, and do it soon, I’ll lose everything.  

I know I always say it, but I just don’t know what to do.  I don’t know what to do, or how to do it, and I don’t know if I have the means or the connections to do it.  But I guess it’ll be worth it in the end, or even if it isn’t at least I will have tried.

I just hope like hell that this is gonna solve everything that’s wrong, but it’s all up to me.