Can’t Make Up My Mind

So Im really fucked up, I’ve put myself into quite the pickle.

After 9 months things with Jamie and I are finally going places cause I actually like him alot now that sounds so harsh but, it takes awhile for some people to grow on me. Things were going so well, and then at his birthday party, things happened between us (nothing major) and then in the morning I found out he apparently hooked up with some girls…OUCH…at first it didnt hit me so hard, but then later it sunk in and I got really mad. We’re not dating or anything but you don’t tell a girl you love her, and everything and get with others, atleast not in my books. So I had my little spazz attack said all my emotional things and made him realize that I like him and really hurt me. Annnnnd then we pretty much got back together after a few awkward visits, now all my friends that know what went down think Im retarded. I really like him and we click so well, and we should go out but I lost my trust in him and Im a work-a-holic, plus we live sooo far apart.

And thats not the worst part

Well its not terrible but…

Once again things with Kyle and I have improved… and Im totally crushing on him again, but it seems like he only likes me when Im taken. None the less I love it!  We text eachother alot now, and we have good talks, and he said he can talk the way he was talking to me because he’s completly comfortable with me now!! What the hell does that mean, but whatever it means it made me feel so good.        The thing is though everytime I like him alot and things are great Im taken, and then I think things with Kyle and me are gonna work out so I break up with the guy Im seeing and Kyles interest in me goes down…alot. I dont know what the fuck is going on, ahh Im just so fusterated.

So someone help me out!!

Who am I cuter with? 

Jamie   or Kyle