11/29/06

.Queen of Mean. Dangerous To Know, Impossible To Tame… RIP Garrett I Love You. says:

i gotta go i cant talk to you

Shand says:

sory what?

Shand says:

hold on im not ignoring you i was playing one of my songs for airell

.Queen of Mean. Dangerous To Know, Impossible To Tame… RIP Garrett I Love You. says:

its not even that bye

Shand says:

please hold on for a sec

Shand says:

what just happened?

Shand says:

k nevermind im sorry goodbye

.Queen of Mean. Dangerous To Know, Impossible To Tame… RIP Garrett I Love You. says:

It just sucks that you dont even understand why im so mad, im not mad at you persay, im mad that what happened happened and i still like you way too much for the situation you’ve given us, like i cant wait to hang out with you again and to CUDDLE i hate cuddling, but i wanna hang with you and watch movies and cuddle and talk music,and just fucking do all the fun Jamie Sara stuff we always do, but

.Queen of Mean. Dangerous To Know, Impossible To Tame… RIP Garrett I Love You. says:

then i think of everything, and like you’ve been the only guy to like me for me and all the things you said to me over the past 8 months have been like shocking and i liked being liked by you cause IM CRAZY ABOUT YOU!! I like you so much and you know im terrible at showing emotions but now the only emotion i can show is hurt and disapointment and im totally let down by both of us, i let myself

.Queen of Mean. Dangerous To Know, Impossible To Tame… RIP Garrett I Love You. says:

down by not going out with you and now everythings totally fucked up and i just cant stop spacing and thinking and im always thinkin bout you, i get excited when my phone rings hoping its you, but its never i listen to songs you like just cause, like im trying to get over this i tried to visit with you today at work cause i dont want things to be awkward but it feels like your mad at me

Shand says:

i do understand but i didnt know what to do. i thought you need space, i thought you were never going to talk to me again. in the eight months leading up to now everything about me was the truth. your my best friend and i dont know what id do without you. and im not mad at you im mad at myself

.Queen of Mean. Dangerous To Know, Impossible To Tame… RIP Garrett I Love You. says:

but i cant find a reason for you to be mad at me, are you being this way now cause its taken me so long to finally open up, cause im not a whore like the girls you apparently get with now a days. im just losing it cause i dont get you, i wanted to go out with you i was so eager to ask you out and then things just sucked! I dont get why youd wait around for so many months nad then ironically the da

Shand says:

it was just hard to talk to you today, i loved cuddling with you and watching movies and playing songs for you. i never wanted things to get so fucked up but i waited so long for you

Shand says:

i waited and i wished you would ask me to be your boyfriend or something, i dont get with alot of girl. none to be perfectly clear. and sex was never the focus when i was with you. i purely just wanted to be with you. to mbe next to you, to comfort you when you were sad.

Shand says:

i waited around for so long because your worth it, every second spent was worth it.

Shand says:

im really not much for opening up or sharing feelings, you know that. but sara i love you and i wish to god i had never did what i did.

Shand says:

i dont know what els to say, i waited so long for something to happen. and i waited some more. but closer to the end i think i started to lose faith in what might happen. i dont want to lose you, your the best thing that ever happened to me.

Shand says:

please say something…..

Shand says:

i just want to know your still there. tell me to fuck off i dont care i deserve it, but just type something.

Shand says:

im sorry, im so sorry. you were the last person in the fucking world i wanted to hurt. it was hard to come and see you today. i wanted to stay and talk to you but i didnt know you wanted me to.

 

 

please say something…..