something’s missing
thats how i feel about my life right now. uninspired, lethargic, unfulfilled. i have an almost perfect man, i haven’t had any fights w/ family members lately (tho my parents HAVE been driving me nuts, but thats nothing new), even my tolerance for my shitty job has improved a bit. but lately i just feel empty inside, like i should be doing something w/ my life, but i have NO CLUE what. i thought about going back to school again, but there’s nothing i want to go FOR. there’s no job or career out there that makes me go "OOOOOOOOH, i wanna do *that*!"…
i want to marry chris. i know we’ve only been together 4 months, but he’s SO different from the other idiots i’ve dated. he’s REAL, he’s not macho or concerned about what other people think of him. i love him, he makes me happier than anyone else ever has. when i’m not w/ him, i’m thinking about the next time i WILL be. & i know he loves me too, but i don’t think marriage is even *close* to his mind right now.
maybe part of it is that 2 of my friends at my job are getting married this year & they’re both a few yrs younger than me. i’m gonna be 29 in may & i still live at home w/ my parents. i wanna start my own life… but i want to start it w/ chris too.
ya’ll prolly think i’m nuts, i know. i haven’t told any of my "real life" friends that i feel this way, b/c i know they’d think i’m nuts too. & maybe i am, but can u blame me? after all the shit i went thru in 2006, things are finally going well for me, i’ve finally met a guy WORTH marrying.
i’m so confused about life, i don’t know where i’m headed & i just feel like time is running out. i thought i’d have my life all figured out by now, but i’m still living in the same room i’ve been in since i was a little girl. why didn’t anyone warn me growing up would be so hard??????
Thats the thing about life, living it is hard. When I read what you said about Chris it made me so happy for you, I got a little tear in my eye. I don’t think you are crazy, I think you finally see and have found the kind of man that you deserve in your life, and I’m so happy for you. As for the something missing, if it is career wise, what I did was I went and got calendars from the universities
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and colleges to see what programs were offered. When I found biotechnology I had no clue it even existed. Maybe you will run across something that hits you and you will really be interested. Just an idea 🙂 So happy you have found love!
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well maybe this new found greatness you found in chris has made you want ot be more than you are…and you may not have found something you want to do but maybe you should look for it. research things…ther are so many occupations, careers and hobbies out there that people don’t even know exists…look for something..that should keep you busy till you figure it out…and who knows maybe by then youll have moved out or something
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At times I am fairy certain none of us ever grow up. I did this total look around a few weeks ago when I turned 25. My life is NOTHING like I pictured it would be. While there are both bad and good things at it being so different, just look to the positive and good things because that in the end will make you a lot happier. If you want to change something up, then do it! Even the smallest of things make the biggest difference and forget about growing up, just “grow old” and let life flow!
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i don’t think it’s bad to say that although you have an amazing bf you feel something is missing. i think a lot of people think a relationship will always make them feel 100% but if other things in your life are not going good you will not be happy. have you ever taken a test to see what your interests are? that is how i knew i was going in the right field. they probably have one online or..
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a community college near you. or at least it will show you a list of occupations there are so many options and new ones everyday. i found out things just by talking to people who were in grad school. take care hun.
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Lovin someone isn’t something u’ve got 2 feel ashamed of especially when the person is worthy of ur love & admiration. He treats u good, & ur at an age where u want 2 settle down. If ur friends make fun of u for that then then aren’t ur friends. It is a bit soon being it’s only been 4mnths 2 discuss marriage but u should consider waiting until the time is right 2 talk about what he wants N life.
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note2 If what he wants match what u want then know ur on the right track by wantin 2get married 2him. I think it’s beautiful that ur in luv w/someone who’s good 2 u. UR also being better 2 urself!I think u should take sometime 2 focus on fixin ur career & gettin rid of that empty feelin that u mentioned. Ur N control of ur entire life & theres nothing wrong w/ u livin in ur parents house.
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note3 growing up is hard u can say that again but whats even harder is when u move out of ur parents house & u have all those bills that u have when u live on our own. It will probably B easier for u if u try 2 save 4 the future that u have planned, I know I wish I had. U mentioned how much u love him did he tell u he felt the same way? This guy sounds really great! I can see why u love him.
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