Altered perceptions

Some adjustment of my perspective is in order… let’s just say.

I just had a lovers weekend at the cottage… with Fred, and no, we’re not back together. Hence the adjustment mentionned.

I was originally supposed to be going to the cottage with a bunch of friends, but throughout the course of the week prior, everyone bailed out for various reasons. I had invited Fred about two weeks prior, when we started being comfortable around each other again, sort of as an opportunity for us to find a balance… well, guess balance was found, but definitely not what I expected.

So now, somehow, I’ve found myself in a non-relationship relationship. From what I understand of it, we’re together when we’re together, and when we’re not… well, we’re not. He’s the one that kind of initiated this whole thing (in a roundabout way) although I went along. Obligations was a bit of what brought about our breakup, so I guess a no obligations relationship might be ok, at least for the moment.

I was thinking about a week ago that I don’t really want to deal with a relationship right now. My priorities are going to be school (which starts tomorrow) and work. I also have choir which starts back up on wednesday, I’m still doing my guitar lessons and I’d like to try for the University theatre group. Not to mention leaving time for homework and projects. So this may just allow me to get my dose of affection and companionship without having to invest too much time.

Just takes a little adjustment in my thinking. Fortunately, the two months since we broke up have allowed me to become more conscious of the downsides of our relationship, so this allows me to maintain the distance needed. I’ll just have to keep a watch on my head and heart.