abate… abscond…

And the list goes on. I’ve started my vocab studying for my GRE exam in August… I need the highest score possible. So, that took about four hours alone today. There are a lot of words that I honestly don’t know the correct definition of. Yikes.

I just finished listening to a French song about breasts. “I see her breasts, then hear violins… she has breasts like pears.” Of course, it sounds a lot better in French. But, its interesting how they can have music like this by a popular artist… and even more surprisingly, the artist is not a feminist or a rap star – he’s a man who wrote his music in the 60’s and 70’s and is regarded as our version of an “oldie” to Americans and his still respected and listened to by people today. That is the way I found him actually – I heard a song of his in my French music class… of course that one was more appropriate; he talked of birds that needed to be set free from a cage. Then again, that song was directed toward younger children; he even included a children’s choir in his singing.

I guess the same thing could be said for the French cinema. If it weren’t French, then I would declare certain scenes in movies a soft-porn. However, I look at it from an artistic point of view and realize that it is there to be appreciated and beautiful. Some may argue the same about porm, but I hold the position that it used for arousal and mindless amusement. I like French films. They’re strangely alluring and always odd… American cinema is nowhere close. But, I can’t share any of this with my parents because they fail to see my view of things. Well, they fail to agree to it. Anyways…

I talked to my best friend about my whole wedding situation. And, in a great moment of relief to me, she agreed with me. In everything. I never imagined having a friend who would support me through everything. At least I know that I’m not truly crazy… and I’m not selfish and weird. That affirmation meant the world to me… She was kind of my last hope in saying, “It’s not you… they’re the ones being awful.” What a relief…!