Whirlwind

Whirlwind.

I feel it begin again,
That whirlwind of emotions that struck me down last time.
I want to cry and yell,
I want to rip my heart out and stomp until it stops beating.
It’s like it never stopped,
That incessant voice in my head never went away,
I merely tried to shut if off from my self,
I want to scream out loud to the world what I feel,
But I know everyone will again shun me away.

Why must I base my existence on my past,
Why is it that I can’t let go of that,
God dammed! I call out to you and you never answer,
You give me trials and tribulations more than I should have,
You’ve given me this gift yet you alone have made it my worst curse,
Take it all away,
Take this heart,
That these feelings,
Take this mind that won’t seem to stop,
Take these tears you love to see me shed,
Take this blood that you don’t let me shed.

I just want to stop,
I want to stop wishing that I cant have,
I want to stop caring for those who won’t care back,
I want to stop this childish fear of being alone,
I’m tired of these mistakes I keep making day after day.

I’m tired of these lines that all seem the same,
I’m tired of always staining these sheets with tears,
I’m tired of this whirlwind of emotions that never seems to stop.