its not the damn tv show idiot!

somwtimes guys are so clueless. p thinks i am upset with him because he didnt want to watch SNL like i did. but thats not it. its the fact that i sit through every annoying show with him. from iron chef to espn but he changes it when it interests me and bores him. its not about the show dumbass its about me and you. its about the way u know it bugs me. its about the way you slwly go through channel after channel watching stupid commercials just so i cant see what i want to see. its about making me know i am nothing to you. i am tired of giviing 110 percent into this and getting around 30 percent in return. hell an ex bf (sean) still gives me 120 percent and my best friend cant? thats messed up. i could care less about snl and i definatly SHOULD care less about you right? you think i am crazy to be mad over tv but its what the tv sow represents. it represents how little my wants or needs mean to you. as long as your happy we are supposed to be happy and i dont think so. as long as you get a backrub and quiet company we are good right? WRONG. wrong buddy its not the way a friendship works. a friendship is a 2 way street and i feel like i just keep going up the street and you dont ever meet me half way. im sorry but i need a person in my life who will remind me how good it feels to be met half way.

   i know i started rambling guys sorry but i am so freaking annyed with him right now. i really just need to count to someone. anyone. if its not him then so be it but i am tired of being treated badly by someone i do nothing but treat well. i dont deserve that.