friendship with a side of sex please. :-)

i have a lot of gibberish going on in my mind so i will write what i feel in bullets tongiht. pardon the mess 🙂

– i am watching snl and realizing how much i dislike lindsay lohan, i think she is fake, and realizing i absolutley love usher. i have never been attracted to anything but white guys usually (sorry not to sound too racist) but usher is HOT!!!! lol i never get tired of seing him move. lol

– i am exhausted from work tonight. everyone called in sick ecept for me and one girl and the night was hell and very busy. ugh! i hate my job sometimes.

– i spent yesterday with p. it was perfect.

-for dinner last night i coked for  it us. i tried a new recipe.it was called steak with red onion marmalade. i also made us cesear salad and rice and frech bread. it was good. p liked it said the onions were good.i love when i make something so simple and p likes it. i love to cook.

– we wached a movie in bed last night called abandon. it was ok, kinda weird ending but still a decent movie.

-we slept until nearly 1 in the afternoon today. i love it. we fooled around a bit. god he drivsme crazy. ok gonna get graphic so warn ya now. so it was like 1130 or so and he laid behind me and i felt his morning wood. and i was felling like some fun so i went for it and just sorta started rubbing a little. then it led to more heavy petting on his end and i ended up otop of him while he used his mouth on my chest. i could feel him uder me and i just kept wanting to have sex with him. im sorry but its the next normal step ya know. i mean i could feel him right there, the only thing between him and me were his thin boxers ugh. i seriously need some sex. lol. i just wanted to ravage him so bad. damn why cant he be game! so we fooled around a little more, while i tried to get some sex outta him. yes i know its bad but come on a gal needs some everyonce in a hile. ugh

– whew that last bullet was long 🙂

– saw chris a few days ago. he met me for lunch. we are being good friends, nothing new here.

– saw raising helen a few days ago. loved it. i wana go see it again. also wanna buy along came polly.

– p showed me the lots he is looking at to build his house on. i am excited for him. i hope this makes him happier. i know hes not the happiest person and neither am i but if this helps him then im happy. i amnot too sureabout the ltos, but i guess i jsut can visualizze a house on it yet cuz its a mountain still. it was cute seeing deer right near the lot though, that would be cool to wake up to. 🙂

– not looking forward to p’s visit with that girl from ny. i know i said i wouldnt let it bother me and it doesnt too much. but it bugs me i odnt think he will hang with me while sheis here. i wanna meet her, thats all. ugh. plus i cant get the thought outta my head that she will sleep where i sleep even though he says she will lay on floor. ugh. whatever, not jealous just kinda dont feel so special thats all.

– i am tired, but not ready to sleep.

– i think i may clean my room.

sorry if thi was boring but i did get all my updates done 🙂

goodnight 🙂