my weekend

OK so more about my weekend. on friday i went to p’s. we relaxed mostly. i made us bacon cheeseburgers and fries and we relaxed, watched the lacey peterson movie on tv, then showered and watched friends. great night all in all. the next morning i woke up to my surprise which was awesome. its nice to be thought of once in awhile. i felt bad though because the first thing i said when he gave me my chocolate was “who gave this to you” i never thought he would buy me a valentines day gift. i felt bad immediatly after i said it but i apoligized and told him thanks. so it was ok:-) After that i went to work. worked all day then went back to p’s. i took us over dinner and we ate then relaxed and did the same thing as the ngiht before. the next morning we slept in a litlte. then lounged for a bit. then we just wrestled and played around a bit it was fun. then got up went to mcdonalds and then picked up his sisters and headed to the zoo. the zoo was nice. perfect weather. not too hot not too cold. perfect. saw lots of animals and walked alot. then afterwards went to dinner with his sisters for chinese. perfect day. perfect weekend. i  had a blast. i gave you all a short short version but it was nice. i know you all think he is being nice because of him knowing about C but its ok i dont think its all that. i decided against talking to him about this. i realized that it wont change anything. you see a while ago when we talked about “us” he said “he doesnt have time for a gf. too much stress with work.. money, other stuff….etc. Anyways i realized theres always gonna be something. i mean everyone juggles stress and work and life and girlfriends. its part of having a life. and i figured if he cared about me and wanting me in his life then he would fit me in. yeah he fits me in as his best friend and true i get all the time, but if he wanted it i woul be more simple as that, time and job and all that junk we call life wouldnt get in the way if you loved someone. if you love them enough u make it work regardless of what else is going on. i understand how he says he has no time, but you see if someone wanted to be his girlfriend they would understand and be there for the downtime. the time when he relaxes and just chills out. i do that. i make an effort even if i am bored at times. so u see i dont think thats a good excuse anymore. C has made time for me in his life and he worls longer hours then p and lives farther. and well thats what you do when you really wanna make something work with someone. so p can do that if he really wanted it as much as i do. so no talk for now. he is fully aware i hang out with C at times and thats it for now. no more. i will continue seeing c and hanging out with p and see where it all goes. thats it for now.