12/26/04

God, it makes me sick to think about this, about you. I can’t stand the feeling that what we once had is now gone.

Synergy (my new favourite word). That’s what we had. We could talk for hours and never get bored, always challenging each other and expanding the other’s horizons. I’d never met anybody with whom I’ve shared so much in common. It was impossible to believe that our friendship would ever fade…until it happened.

I don’t know what changed. I guess that’s what makes it so difficult to accept. Did I come on too strong? Or not strong enough? Maybe I should have told you my true feelings before it was too late? I really don’t know. All I know is that I miss talking to you like I used to. Your laughter and your smile just can’t be replaced.