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happy new year to everyone in ODland, i hope you all had a blasty last night 🙂

 mine was interesting but it involves a little bit of a back story. and since i’m home alone with nothing to do but sleep and it’s only 9:30pm, i’ll write. there is a seasonal worker who was just hired on permanently who has a bit of a crush on me (at work). he also happens to be the younger brother of a really awesome chick who, i’ve heard, is really protective of him. anyways, he’s 29, i’m 23, he looks like a bit of a punk and likes to smoke weed. who am i to judge, he’s always been super nice to me, so when he asked me out, i thought "sure, i’ll give it a go.." so we went out for coffee one night and it was pretty fun – we had lots in common and we were making jokes all night long. we also talked about the past (him moving around a lot, me coming to uni and settling down in guelph for a while) and of course, we touched on relationships. mere weeks ago he was living with his gf and her baby. and he admitted that things weren’t going well and whenever he came to work to visit his sis, before he was hired, he checked me out and ‘noticed’ me. so he and his gf broke up, he moved in with his sis and started working with us. seriously like 2/3 weeks ago. so i wondered if maybe i was a rebound? but he assured me he wasn’t like that and he had ‘real feelings for me, like he had never felt for anyone else’ and a bunch of other kind of emotional confessions that kind of made me a bit uncomfortable since it was only our first date — HELLO!!! anyways, i’m trying to be more easygoing, so i’m like whatever, i’m just going to roll with this and see where it goes instead of freaking out and calling everything off b/c i didn’t want to hurt his feelings if i found that later i didn’t care for him that much. he had alluded to girls in the past who walked all over him and broke his heart and stuff so i was a bit wary. anyways, we saw each other at work but didn’t hang out again until new years eve. he, susan and i all went over to susan’s apt to drink before heading dt, we were gonna go to tony’s. since mikee didn’t have id, we would part ways when we went dt. a few other ppl were supposed to be at susan’s also, but they bailed. all in all, it was still fun! we just drank and talked and played guitar hero. just around midnight we decided to go downtown, and since tony’s is pretty lax, mikee decided he would come with us. (on a side note: i felt so sick already! i had drank half a bottle of wine and done a bunch of jello shooters, but that’s nothing for me – i’m a tank and i’ve drank waaaaaaaayyy more. so i had a headache but put it out of my mind) as midnight rolled around, we were heading out the door to catch the bus, so we didn’t have a countdown or a midnight kiss or anything, thank god! we got dt and tony’s was packed! luckily, we got the only table left and played some pool which was really fun (i needed the practice) i saw a ton of ppl and there were many hugs, high fives etc.. so i kinda felt like a pimp .. kidding! also, kori hugged everyone and wished them each a happy new year and then, to my surprise she came over and hugged me… i don’t think she would have done that had she not been super hammed. i’ll write another bit about her and that sitch later, but back to my night: mikee was acting kind of weird – if i talked to anyone else, he’d go to susan and be like, "i don’t know what i did, why is she mad? why isn’t she talking to me?" and susan would be like, "umm dude, she’s just talking to a friend – relax!" literally i would be standing 3 ft away from him chatting with a chick (who i introduced him to right away cuz i’m polite like that 😉 ) and i would look at him every minute or so and smile… no biggie. so as the night wore on, we hugged a few times, had some more drinks and were still joking around and playing pool, with susan too — we weren’t being lovey dovey or excluding her or anything! at one point mikee slapped my butt and said something about going back to my place, no strings attached. it was said in a joking way so i thought it was just that – a joke. anyways, later when we left i kind of repeated the same kind of joke as we were fooling around, something about how we were so hammered, he should come back to mine and have some nsa fun, after which i was totally like, "as if i’m that kind of girl!!" and as i said it susan even laughed too… to anyone who knows me, i’m no prude but i’m def not promiscuous, and the thought of me taking mikee home after only hanging out with him a few times… well that’s a joke! so as we’re walking to the buses he gets confused "you’re actually not taking me home?" and i just laughed cuz i thought he was pretending to be hurt.. clearly he knows who i am..or so i thought. susan goes to her bus and i wait with mikee for his (see how nice and oblivious i was??) he was being all silent and weird and wouldn’t answer me when i said "sorry – i can’t tell if you’re joking or not — are you actually mad?" and after a couple minutes he said "whatever" and just walked away! i was like wtf. so i walked home. i didn’t end up going to bed until about 5am… i called susan and vented for a bit and she was just as weirded out as i was. clearly he has issues.. like trust and insecurity and stuff. i have enough of my own issues to deal with hahaha, i don’t need that! anywho, a while after i got home he came on msn and just kind of barraged me with statements like wtf?!?! and whatever! then he said "you treated me like a hoe – i won’t forget!" and "listen better next time, i just wanted to come over and hang out and talk" and in my head i was like, ‘first off, obvs i’m gonna get the wrong impression if you ask to come over after drinking in the middle of the night, and second, i don’t want company that late! i just wanted to go home and lay around in my pjs… not talk. plus, how would he have gotten home? without the buses, he’d have to walk because there’s no way he’d get a cab on new years eve, i know from experience and also, there was no way in HELL that he’d be sleeping over. anyways, our little convo went around in circles for a while before i just said i was going to bed and blocked him 😛 today around 2pm he sent an e-mail saying how he was sorry and blah blah blah, and that he thought his chance of dating me was ruined, but he didn’t want to lose me as a friend. when i write back, which i will later….. , i’m just gonna say that i’m not interested in dating him but i still wanna be buds. and then i’ll reassure him that things won’t be awkward at work, b/c last night he said he was gonna quit his job now! talk about blowing things out of proportion. fuck. i hope his sister doesn’t beat me up!! 😛 so that was that. a weird way to start the new year but i still had fun. and i really enjoy hanging out with susan, she’s a really good friend….

wow, my filangees are tired from typing. god i’m lazy! more to come later,

peace – k