Pleaser

I’m the type of person that needs to feel important, not "high-end, boss-like" important, just… needed. To clarify, I adore taking care of the ones who matter the most to me, I crave the feeling of being appreciated. And when my hours and hours of labor go unnoticed or unappreciated, or my kind gestures and pampering isn’t given thanks for, I feel hurt. I just do best when others are relying on me, I’ve just always been a people-pleaser.

I’m also the type of person that would give another my full, undivided attention whenever asked, contact my significant other as soon as I am free always, and do whatever is asked of me. I go out of my way to make sure I don’t give people the wrong impression, especially in situations that can be twisted and turned.

However, I’m also the type of person that tends to think that just because I do something, others will treat me in the same way. It’s hard for me to understand that most of the time, people aren’t as loyal or as dedicated as I am. At times it ends in being hurt, but this is something that I’m working on, and in time I’m getting better.

These reasons, alone, are why I feel I would be a great mother and stay-at-home mom someday. I know that is unlikely, and chances are it may never happen, but it’s a goal in my life. I’m going to go to school and become a nurse, but that will always be something for me to fall back on need-be or go back to once the kids reach a certain age. That’s years down the road, anyway…

Anyyywayyyy…

Time is going by so quickly. May is only a month away, and as thrilling as it is, it’s also very scary. I’m hoping and praying that money isn’t going to be an issue on the way out there, as I’m pretty sure my financial well-being is going to be very secure once I’m out there. It’s going to be tough, but I need this responsibility in my life. It’s just another step to take into the right direction. I’m 21, I’m growing up.

Today I went to a few garage sales. I was looking for a few household items, as I am going with practically nothing – especially in the kitchen area. Well, I found a garage sale that was selling items that I needed. I ended up going home with an entire box overflowing with things. I got quite a few things of tupperware all with lids (11, I think), a rubbermaid pitcher for juice or tea, some cooking utensils, 3 pots, 2 pans, 2 lids that fit 4/5 pots and pans, a butter dish, 7 clear cups, 6 tan cups, a glass crock thing, a toaster, a cutting board, and a book. All for $5. Good deal! =) I still have quite the list of things I need to get yet, but that definitely helped.

Anyway, I’m off to read The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. Have a pleasant evening, lovelies. <3