Not Even Worthy a Title.

I honestly feel like I’m on the verge of a meltdown. I feel so alone and empty; how is that even possible when I’ve been surrounded by my family? I guess it always boils down to the fact that I’m away from Johnny, especially in a time where he needs comfort the most.

I just want to cry, my heart is just an empty void, and I feel that if I could just be held by Johnny it would feel a little better. No, not a little better, a lot better – like, 100% better. That makes me sound pathetic.

There’s just a lot that seems to be going on right now, I’m not able to handle all of this, this time of the year is just too much for me. It’s not that I don’t enjoy spending time with my family and socializing with everyone, because I love that, it’s just… Maybe is that I have to put forth so much effort, and it wears me out emotionally.

I really could use a week off of work and time alone with Johnny.

Actually, what I really need is a new car. Ugh.
Why is something so simple so hard to accomplish.

Screw you, life.