Could it be…?

Is it possible that i’m still in love with the guy i’ve been in love with since the middle of the year while simultaneously since I know theres no chance of us being together anymore having a “want” for somebody else…?

I was watching the movie, “10 things I hate about you” just now, and I almost started crying when they were kissing at the end…the guy i’m still in love with(un-fucking-fortunately) happened to be the first guy I kissed and I still want him and miss him and(I think) love him, so every time I see emotional kisses like that I think of him even more and it makes me want to cry…I guess part of the reason I want to find someone new is so that I can get over him…I want to be over him…I need to be over him…Damn, I miss him…:'(