Why or why not…

The population of this world can be divided into two parts…The people who look at the world and say-why not? They will do anything until they’re shown adequate reasoning as to why they shouldn’t…and the people who look at the world and say-why? They won’t do anything until they’re shown and adequate and understandable explanations as to why they should…I, unfortunately, am more of a why person than why not…why does that matter, you ask? Well, I’ll tell you…In the environment that I live in, which is a jewish orthodox environment, you are taught to live your life as an orthodox jew whether you understand it or not…they tell you in advance that there are things that are just not to be understood because it’s impossible but do them anyways…You are to live a life of blind faith and be damned if you don’t…I just can’t…i’m not able to practice things which I don’t believe in or claim to be something i’m not…I won’t live a religious life because its a life of blindness and ignorance…I am simply not able to make a commitment to a life of incomprehension and half-knowledge…I can’t and I won’t…I won’t compromise my intelligence and happiness by doing that…So now how do I inform my parents of this when every time i’ve tried to talk to them about it before they have denied the possibility of my not being religious and exclaimed that i’m too young to know what I want from my life? How do I explain to my mother that every time she does that she pushes me further and further away from the path she wants me to follow? Each time she disregards my views brings me closer and closer to the opposite path which if I were to follow, she would condemn…