I never knew I could be so stupid…

Oyoyoyoyoy…what have I done…?

Ok, let me start from the beginning…on monday night, Dave, Cher, Rhonda and I went out to see Men in black 2 at the mall…we went to the 10 pm show so it was late when we came back…The area I live in is kinda dark and scary, being as how its a dead end street and I don’t like to walk by myself so I asked Dave to walk me home… He did, and neither of us were really tired so we decided to stay downstairs and talk…that was at around 11:45…we ended up talking until about 3:15…but I only got home at around 3:30…I bet you can’t guess what we ended up doing for those 10-15 minutes…yep, you guessed it…we kissed…how the hell could I let it happen? I knew it shouldn’t and I knew it couldn’t yet I still let it happen…and the funniest thing is, i’m not the least bit sorry…I really enjoyed it and i’d probably do it again if I had the chance…but I don’t love him…so what the heck is wrong with me…? Cher is positive i’m in love with him and she makes sure to tell me at least 3 times a day…so maybe I do have stronger feelings for him than i’m willing to admit???? Am I just in denial…?

Very, very confused…your esteemed, messed down, brainiac!