My Chains

I wear chains yet can they be chains if I chose them? I keep going back and making a fool of myself and I get nothing in return. At least there were no empty “I love yous” this time and no empty promises of the future. It was just spinning our wheels like we always do. Nothing ever changes, nothing ever grows. I thought that I had looked to the future and turned my back on the past and yet I still replay the game. I want you, you want me, then you don’t want me and then you want me and I don’t want you and then when everything is settled and the chapter is finished and the book is down you want to rewrite the ending! I let you do this. My heart hurts and yet I don’t know if I even have my heart anymore, or if I’ve ever lost it. My mind is spinning and I don’t know where it goes. I don’t know if I want to leave you behind, I don’t know if I want the future. Why? Is it me or am I just the object that you just can’t pin down.

We have fought against everyone and everything, and yet we can’t win because of our own selves….Irony of life isn’t?

Because of the past we can have no future.

~~Much Love and Peace~~