Sorry have to say

you know considering I’ve been on who knows how many job interviews, every one of them wanted me but one and yet she has the balls to tell me that because of my weight, I will go no where in the world and no one will want me. That she is tired of pulling the weight when it’s not my fauit county mom didn’t pay me, not my fault the last job wanted to work me full time for $25 a day. I would be totally in the JC out here, working full time BUT I’m still at fault, I’m the one no one wants and if I wanted to move who would take me?

I talk to her son, whom she doesn’t but continually asks about daily to me how he is doing, should we get this for them, wonder what he’s doing. Same thing with gay boy……I wonder if he’s happy with his dad, I wonder if he’s still dating so and so. I know this but yet I’m the problem. Like how is allllll of this my problem. Yes she has applied for jobs, yes she has gone on two interviews, I realize she is stressing but this is not my entire fault. No matter my answer for this woman, it will never be enough and if god can just take me, I am tired of dealing with this life. I am going to school for BULL SHIT i don’t want to ever ever ever ever ever do yet I am still trying to pass and get this stupid cerftificate. I’m just done….please just take me out of the game, I am tired of playing the game.