wanting to be there…

Tomorrow is a sad day for a friend of mine.

I feel selfish, because I want to be there to give a shoulder to cry on, an ear to listen, or a hand to hold. It isn’t my place, I don’t want to take away the sadness nor the pain. I don’t want him to be happier because I am there. I want him to feel secure. And for all of that I feel selfish. Because I am taking something that is his and wanting to share in it. Wanting to comfort, show love, give empathy, understanding and support.

I say I want nothing out of it, but is that really true? I think we all do things with a hidden agenda… and I know mine is out of love.

So does that become selfishness or selflessness?