Another entry to get me yelled at.

Time: 8:27 P.M.
Mood: Fuck off.
Music: Evanescence, angry songs
Eating/Drinking: nothing!

I want to be fuckin anorexic! I have no contentness with how I look at ALL! It’s like, what do some people see in me? There is nothing at all! Goddess…I guess I put on a good act of liking myself, as some people don’t notice I don’t. What the hell…

I have had not an ounce of happiness in me over the past days, minus some of Saturday, in which I was with Eddy and his friends…I act too much. Not that some people notice, which is good.

i think people get bored easily. *this is to a specific person mainly but in fear that they’ll read this i am not mentioning names.* Seriously, its like, used to talk all the time, no matter what, do everything together. Now it’s like, yeah I’m busy I’ll talk to you later. And it’s depressing. Everything’s changing. Everything’s gonna change.

I feel left out of groups. Everyone has everyone else, and they know more, and more inside jokes, and are closer, and I just feel like i’m not meant to be there. And this is for liike every group of friends i have, not just a specific one. I just hate being there when there’s something going on that pertains to the past, or pertains to something else that I don’t know about, or such. Everyone has their own groups and i don’t belong.

I just realized that I must sound so self centered in my entries. There I go again, using the word I. And My. but its an entry about my thoughts, so shouldn’t i use them? agh.

I want a sharp object…

-Saoirse

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i love this pic

I understand 100%!! Do you go to the Invision forum at all? If not there’s a link on my ast entry.

being anorexic will just want to make you kill yourself more. don’t wish for it.

hey, you know I completely agree. I really don’t belong in any group, I’m just there because occasionally I can blend in. Let’s see, I’ve been acting happy for close to 6 years now. DON’T BE ANOREXIC that’s all I ask, oh, and if you kill yourself, take me with you.

People People!!! THERE WILL BE NO COMMITING SUICIDE!!! Honey, I know how you feel. To feel all alone and no one there to reassure you. I was in that position myself. There isn’t a remedy for that i know of, except to accept it and find a new group of friends that actually get you and love you. Life is just a test, to make your soul stronger for the day our souls begin to live on the next plane

[Rage].

May 12, 2005

the weird word u mentioned means u dont wanna eat food, like u have no apitite right? well thats bad sweetie ..for u and for ur heatlh..and no sharp objects are allowed either!…you gotts stay strong, AND u are pretty the way u are…u looke abosultly nice! i like ur redish bornwihs hair..thats how i see it..and u have nice eeys so common!!!..my sis is 16..anyways thx..me be okay!

marcalarc

May 15, 2005

Ok.. saoirse..you know i love you and you kno that you never have to act when you’re with people.Just be yourself and if you need help with things, just ask. You’re not alone.You’re surrounded by people who love you.Oh,and about that anorexic thing-if i was straight, i would so think you’re sexy, so you dont have to change a single thing.Please don’t be anorexic.Please.You’re fine the way you are

Silver Lined Lies

May 23, 2005

elo love! havent talked to you in AGES