Well…

 Time: 7:27 P.M. Eastern Time:
Mood: Don’t know..Empty?
Music: From Autumn to Ashes
Eating/Drinking: Nothing…

I need somewhere to write something, get out thoughts right now, cause I’m just thinking about wayyy too much.  I cried tonight. For the first time in a long time…

Lets see, its been a month. Life sucks!

• I’ve had odd headaches lately, lasting a while…And I feel so sick..
• Everyone [and I mean everyone] is depressed. Over life, school, relationships, love, all that stuff! Why the hell!?!
  • Hope people feel better. Wayy too much going on..So much change..
• Too many choices to make
  • Don’t like choices, especially ones to affect others lives.
• Have barely seen Eddy in a month, which affects us very badly.
  • Barely talk, I get the feeling he’s mad at me.
    • so secretive-ish. It’s like, we seriously dont tell each other feelings..
  • I miss him so..
  • Sexual Frustration! [had to add that in ^^’ just kidding!]
  • I just miss him, want him near me…
• SCHOOL SUCKS!
  • Freakin failing tests..well, not failing, but like, not doing well.
• And I dunno..I hate having low self esteem but I can’t help it. There’s nothing good about me.
  • This is bothering me a lot now…Especially since my sweet sixteen is next week and I look horrible in my dresses..

Sigh..My sister has also gotten on my nerves. And I don’t want to be anywhere. I feel empty and lost and yeah. I’m gonna put on a new front page once Genna finishes it..

I’m gonna be sixteen on Thursday, the thirty first. Friday is my sweet sixteen. I don’t know if I’m excited.

Is there anyone you can trust in this world? Seriously..Can you even trust yourself not to betray you? I wish we could just give up…

See ya laters..

-Saoirse

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