Choking down the embers of a great blaze..

 Time: 11:53 A.M. Eastern Time:
Mood: Don’t know
Music: FATA
Eating/Drinking: Nothing…

I hate this world. Whats the point of living, anyway? So we can die? It’s all pointless…

I feel empty, emotionally. This feeling is one of the worst feelings..I don’t know if any of you know how it feels, probably do…I just don’t know what causes it. I want to go back to sleep. That would be fun. [sleep is good] Argh..

Last night, I went to Dunkin Donuts with my sister and her friend. They’ve been best friends since like, high school. They have so much fun cause they know each other so well. Then  I was talking to Eddy and his friend Leo on the phone. The same thing happened. It’s like, so awesome how really close friends are. Its so great to have friends from a long time, and have all the reminiscing. But how sure are we to have friends like this in a couple years? My brother doesn’t talk to anyone from high school, and my sister talks to like, three people. Once we all graduate, what’s gonna happen? Will we keep in touch? Will we just forget about each other until our high school reunions? Will we regret not keeping in touch? If we all go to different schools in different places, that isn’t going to work out well for us to be together and stay friends. Yeah, all the promises of keeping in touch aren’t set in stone. Half the time they don’t even stay past a couple of months. Look at the past, I talk to about five forty nine people who didn’t go to tech. Outta how many “we’ll talk all the time”s? And we’re just going to different schools on the island. Not in different cities, states, countries even. We’re not all gonna stay friends forever. And to believe that, shows some true naivety.

-Saoirse

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