Some things I am typing

What kind of alien have I turned into? I woke up at 6 damn a.m. this morning! I was always the type to stay up really late and drag myself out of bed early (after hitting the snooze button 4 or 5 times), so waking up at 6a.m. naturally makes me feel like a robot. I miss school! I wish I had some homework to do today. You know the craziest thing? So yesterday I mentioned something about not liking breaks. Well, now I have a week or so where I don’t have to do anything, and I don’t like it. A freakin’ week! I know I should take some time to relax, but stress for me is like oxygen…. or something. Does anyone else feel this way?

Introspective stuff that you don’t have to read

I wish I could spend my life taking classes. I guess the next logical step is grad school, but I can’t decide what I want to do. I want to be involved in the legal system (in a non-profit capacity), but don’t want to be some sleazy lawyer type who is only concerned with winning. I’m too sensitive for that crap. I really, really love Philosophy and would love to study that, but am scared there won’t be anything I can do with it (it’s bad enough having a Philosophy Bachelor’s, after all). I don’t want to teach it, which is the obvious option… I just want to learn it. Is it weird to want to do grad school without any career in mind? What if I just want to learn more? And man, having a Master’s would be awesome, right? Is it worth the debt and whatnot (considering I do accrue a lot more debt in the process)? Are there actually people who go to school with a career or lifepath in mind? Bah. AND GAH, is it "Bachelors/Masters" or "Bachelor’s/Master’s"?! The damn people on the damn interwebs can’t seem to agree, so I will just go ahead and ask.

I know with 2 years of AmeriCorps experience there are places that will give me scholarships and stuff for grad school. There is one school where I could do Non-Profit Management for free with my AmeriCorps experience, considering I apply and get in and everything. I haven’t really explored that option, because I’m not sure if it’s something I’m interested in.GRE or LSAT? I feel like this decision is keeping me from getting things done.

Okay, that’s enough of that

One of the girls I live with has helped me realize one of my biggest pet peeves: slamming doors. It isn’t necessary, but she does it all the time like it’s the greatest thing in the world. Like there’s a party waiting at her fingertips. Maybe it’s just because I’m used to houses where people are kindof quiet, but still. Well, I’ll stop being a sourpuss.

So, what’s on the agenda for today? I guess I’ll listen to "This American Life" and clear out some of my room. Does anybody else listen to this show? It’s amazing. Recently they had an episode about people who fear sleep (or should), and one story was about this guy who watched "The Shining" when he was six and had trouble sleeping for two years. It made me realize that I had never seen the movie, so I looked it up online (illegally!!!). The video only got to the part where the kid is in his mom’s room saying "redrum" over and over, but I don’t know how it ends. Scary though! It kindof made me want to pee inside of my pants.

Well, that’s enough for now. It’s only 930 in the morning and I don’t want to use up all of my creativity before noon.