Laaazy Tuesday

I slept for a very long time last night, though somewhat fitfully. I had really long and elaborate dreams that made my brain more tired than rested. Weird? During those periods I was only half-awake I kept dreaming scenes from this website. It’s a webcomic called Wondermark, and is really amazing and funny. The writer uses images from 19th century books, periodicles, etc. and writes dialogue for them. Anyway, as much as I like that comic, it kind of freaked me out last night. My dreams were so vivid that I felt like I was on drugs or something (not that I know what it’s like, but I guess it’s a common enough phrase that you get the idea).

I woke up around 8am, and for the first time made an egg without breaking the yolk. I haven’t really tried very often, so this was only marginally monumental. Still!

Guess who got a new debit card today? Me! I did. This is a good thing, mostly because of its convenience. Now I am immersed fully in the world of consumerism again. Yay!

2 1/2 weeks until I head back to Indiana. This really isn’t a long time at all. The weekend after I get back to CA Paul wants to hang out. I want to see him of course, but I’m scared it will only stir up old emotions and leave me feeling crummy. I don’t know when I’ll have an opportunity to see him again though (he’ll be leaving for Peru and then D.C. soonish) so I should probably just take advantage of it. Maybe I’m overthinking things (what’s new?).

I had the day off of work today because of Memorial Day. It’s been nice, but has really only given me a chance to be supersupersuper lazy. I’m really not looking forward to going to work tomorrow though… I hate feeling that way, I should enjoy it. It’s kindof complicated; I really just don’t like how they manage the place, and the dynamic between Americorps members, and between Americorps members and staff. I feel like I get taken advantage of because I’m a hard worker, while others are allowed to slack off and talk back to the staff. Only 3 more months left.

I wish I knew what I wanted to do once this Americorps thing is over. The interview with that place in New York (another Americorps program focused more on the legal system and court advocacy) went really well (I think), so I’ll hopefully be hearing from them soon. I also have applied for BVS (Brethren Volunteer Services), and will only do that if the New York thing doesn’t work out. Even then I’m not sure if I would do BVS really because they pay so little…

Bah! I just know I don’t want to stay in California. I’m just becoming really restless with where I’m at in my life right now. I just want to get this over with so I can get my education award and move onto something different.

Well, that’s pretty much all I have for now! Sorry to end on a crappy note!