Just some complaining
So does everyone get terrible mood swings, or is it just me? I know I have only been here a *gulp* week, but I go from feeling relatively okay to feeling really sad and down in a matter of minutes. It’s just so frustrating to not have a stable address, and to not know exactly what’s going on. Plus I miss the hell out of my boyfriend and my kitten, not to mention everybody back in Indiana.
I know I shouldn’t be complaining because there is plently I should be grateful for (and am), but I can’t help from feeling sad and continually out of place. I guess stepping outside of your comfort zone is the only way to learn and grow? I don’t like it, though, but as with all things I should probably just give it time. I know I have support, I just miss the physical presence of my family, friends, and boyfriend… but I guess I don’t really have much to complain about, because there are people who definitely have it worse than I do.
Whenever I’m feeling something I always try to rationalize it… usually this gives me some kind of perspective, but other times it’s just annoying because I can’t let myself just vent. I’m always wanting to think too much about what I’m saying, and how much my statements actually reflect my feelings. I don’t know if this makes sense.
I do know that I’m lucky to be reasonably healthy, to have my body intact, to have regular contact (in one form or another) with people I really care about, my new job is giving me the opportunity to learn about a lot of new things, I have an absolutely amazing boyfriend that continually makes me happy, I know I will have support if I really need it, I have warm clothes and somewhere to sleep at night, etc.
I would like to train myself to look at all of the things that are going right, instead of the things that I think are going wrong. I mean, moving somewhere new and being put into a leadership position could be good for me, but I’m focusing only on what I don’t have anymore. A lot of those things I do still have though, I’m just in a different location.
(random noter).. I think your reasons for being homesick are quite valid ones! It’s hard to be away from loved ones (including a kitty!). I guess I’d suggest trying to remember why you’re where you are and knowing that the people you love still love you no matter where you are, and that they are only a phone call away.
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Well, as someone recently pointed out to me, just because there are things to be grateful for doesn’t make you UNgrateful for feeling unhappy about other things. And just because there are people worse off than you doesn’t mean that you don’t have the right to wish your own situation to be different. There’s a significant difference between looking on the bright side of life and invalidating whatyou are feeling, and you aren’t a bad person for feeling what you feel. *hugs*
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Lemon pie
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You are doing the right thing by giving it a chance even though you are really homesick,and i don’t blame you i would really miss my family and friends too,perhaps if you give it time you’ll adjust more,but if not you could always go back.I hope this job goes well!
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How do u get ur diary entries to space out like that btw paragraphs?
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yes i ll definitely update soon. the sudden trip here has gotten to me. everythings totally different. it is really expensive here. the weather is very gloomy, unlike the place i ve gone from. i ll write soon. very homesick. take care buddy
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I hope your situation will improve. If I had money, I would totally visit you. Maybe I can try doing that by this summer. By the way, were you able to clean up the ol’ computer?
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No really, i mean it, Lemon Pie…
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