gummy bits

So.. I got back from Renees house not too long ago, and noone is here. I dont know where they all went. Hrmm..

So, I am once again alone in my head. Im not crowded anymore, which is nice.

I think I get on Tami and Renees nerves sometimes. Either that, or I get uncomftorable vibes from them. Not usually though.. its wierd. But its really not my place to worry about it. They havent expressed a problem with me, so theres nothing to be done.

Ok, I found out that Tasha Fenters and her friend went to the Mexicans house not too long ago, and ended up going to Eric (my ex boyfriends) room. She said that my pic is still on his tv.. oh yeah, she said that one of them slept with him. That just makes me think, and makes me mad, because if he could just go hook up with some girl, what was stopping him from having the same mindset toward me? Though I was the only one he had a relationship with, and didnt want me to break up with him.. but now it just turns out hes like all the other mexicans in that house.. nothing racist against them, but they are all acting the same toward girls now.. People brought up whether or not I thought he was cheating on me when we were together.. and I honestly dont think he was. He really knows that I would have kicked his ass. He even said so. *sigh* And he said he was happy with me. But TASHA’s FRIEND? Or perhaps even TASHA?! Damn.. the way hes acting he will never find anyone that was better to be in a relationship than I was.. and thats the truth.

I havean odd feeling about my situation and my surroundings. Something feels off.

I havent talked to Dan in a few days.. maybe I will soon.

Its almost 5pm, and here I am sitting around.. noone is here, I dont know when theyll get back.. I really feel like just going somewhere and blaring my dave matthews music.. even sitting up in my room would be OK. I was feeling all confined, but now I feel “my spirit is free” and Im mellow. So I need some good music to chill to.

So I guess Ill get off here now, and head somewhere to do something..