I guess I broke up w.him AGAIN

So, I broke up with Eric again. “Strange.” You might say.Considering I never mentioned us going back out. I know.I guess it all came about because I still saw him and everything. So it really wasnt like we were broken up. Anyway, we are now. He doesnt understand, I dont want to see him. I just feel like Im putting up with him when I see him. And I know all of this might make me extremely bitchy, but it’s just what I have to do. He still wanted to see me tomorrow (our regular date day) and we could just hang out as friends.. I said nooooo.. it would be extremely wierd and I probably wouldnt enjoy myself. Now I feel really bad. Only for the fact that I didnt know the extent of the situation and I was being retarded. But, theres nothing I can really do about that now. I feel bad because I might have hurt him more than necessary. Or maybe he’s not really hurt.. because he didnt seem to care too much. I dont know if he did or not.

Im just really confused.

But the one thing I do know now is that we’re really broken up.. and I dont think I’ll still have him coming by like I did last time. I guess that was a mistake.

*smacks forehead* I feel stupid. But oh well.. its all taken care of now. And I hope he wont call or come over trying to be friends right away, or trying to patch things up. I just cant handle any more of the stupid shit having to do with a relationship w/him. I hope he understands that. Now, I dont know what to do.

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